LiL SNOWMAN
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Friday, April 29, 2005,
♥ 9:00 PM
hmm hmmm.today? was a very very hot day! the weather was so unbearable!! omg omg.feel so sticky lo. hees.had abt 3 tests today? chinese wasnt gd cos the setting had mistakes so i had quite a lot of difficultiees in it but mdm jiang say jus write down the mistake n so i did.hees.lucky marks wont be based on how well i do the test but as in a aoverall view of the paper too. n maths? prepare to fail bahs. i jus hate maths. maths hate me too.=D.hees.so we're quits.yeahs. maths q3 i considered nv even do lo.hees.cos i dun udnerstand n dun noe how to do.yeahs.geo was still okie;heesco? onli up till 4pm lo.wait for 2 hs for imah dey all n we went home.hees.yeahs. thx imah for helping mi hold my books!
hmmx. its lik a maze. no matter how many bends n corners, if we have fate,we'll still meet in de end.~smiles~
Sunday, April 24, 2005,
♥ 7:05 PM
hmmx.yesterday.was quite fun.or extreme fun when bowling wif class lo.mrs low is a pro in tt.ha.yeah.i n kristy both strike once?hees.yeah.should b bahs.den she went crazy over some teddies.hahaha.hmmx.concert yesterday night was okie lo.quite nice? yeah.went home in torture.stupid.cos this gastric working up.pain untill at home i have to squat down.stupid.thx kartkart for cooking mi noodles.den feel much more better later on.lucky my phone can work again.becos yesterday i did something silly n caused it to jam.thx dad for helping me:D.
hmmx.i dunnoe y issit so.but i'm confused n i dun understand.i jus dont feel okie n myself when i'm wif u.i'm trying to adapt but maybe i'm not used to lo.maybe we live in 2 different worlds
to him--i dunnoe wads the difference.i dun care lo.this is me.whether u lik or not.
Friday, April 22, 2005,
♥ 8:50 PM
hmmx.quite a day wif.no idea.hmmx.meaning i dunnoe wad to say bout it lo.today sch was still okie.but de teacher seems to be in bad mood.n lik showing it lo.come on.we come to sch not to see their'black faces' r we?co wasnt on today.but every1 were to gather at the music room n we did.rumours/facts were going around saying mr lee is leaving us becos he have to drop a sch frm the 3 he has.i dun wan him to leave us! i mean...we will miss him a lot.n ya.i noe maybe others in other sch will too...but i jus dun wanna him to leave although i noe we had to respect wadeva decision he make.i still dunwanna him to go.he is such a marvellous conductor.nv giving up hope on us.nv giving up believeing in us,caring for us,be there for us.there is no other conductor to be like him .as 'fatherly' i guess?he is damn nice lo.he's the greatest conductor i've ever met.seriously.
n sighs~ seniors sec4pass out le.this orchestra seems to be a little meaningless. sec1 r gone for ndp.i suppose the cracky stuffs,jokes,laughters frm our senior gonna be lesser n lesser n even disappearing soon bahs. the orchestra seems to be a little cold without them.becos of them,co is so fun n lively.they r the main memories i have for co.yeah.jus wished they'll not leave lo.hope de sec1s attitude shall get better .~prays~
tml going for bowling i think? n de sco concert bahs.at victoria concert thingy.parents going to watch de singer's concert at s'pore indoor stadium.which means i cant get dad to drive mi dere.nvm.maybe so should cherish de times wif seniors bahs.yeahs.i'm gonna miss them lots lots lotssssss
u have been living in my memory.tts y.its jus so hard to forget.
Thursday, April 21, 2005,
♥ 9:58 AM
ya sey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we got silver!!! yes yes!!heehehehs,although we aimed for gold,but we managed to maintain the silver which was totally out of our expectation!!hehehhes,we thought in de end we wil get bronze de.but when de judge annouce,we all scream like siao sia.omgx. de few mins on stage is so precious! it was kinda scary cos everyone frm other sch was looking at us manx.n i scared i miss de bowing,but lucky nv!hees!all of us put in a lot of effort for this moment n yupx,we should feel proud tt we kept the silver!yeahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes yes!!!!!! 3 cheers n 3 cheers for chua chu kang!!!!! we gonna miss all de seniors!!!Monday, April 18, 2005,
♥ 9:07 PM
wah seh.today.imah,kristy,jessie n me went chaotic in kristy's house.hahahhax.omgx.laughing our heads off manx.hees.imah n jessie were so pervetic! n den kristy was qutei blur sia.hahahahx.we hid her chocolate den she dunnoe n thought she ate it le!hahahahhax.her expressions were lik.=o!.hahaax n before tt,we at her house downstairs n she scream when she suddenly saw a cat!hahahahha.e way she jump up.hahaha!hees.=PpPp.Opps.sry kristy!hahhax.said ur secret out.hees.co was quite okie lo.hehsnice day.freeze for mi pls.
Sunday, April 17, 2005,
♥ 8:45 PM
todayx?went to orchard wif girl girl.hees.fun manx!hahahhaa.girl girl,i shall tell every1 now.hahaha.she was so funny manx.cos she eating ice mahs.den she say''dun make mi hors.later i spit the ice on u''hahaha.den we in the department store ritex,den i reply''spit lors,i take the model(manequin or fake person or wadeva u call tt) hit u den u noe hors''hahahha.den she laugh n she spit everything out sia!hahaha.den lik fountain lik tt.hahahahs.den she v.pai seh lors.cos got a mother wif 2 kids walk past.hahahaha.make mi laugh lik siao.hahahaha.den she blame mi is i make her laugh de lo.hahaha.v.funny her reaction.hees.den went to find yiwen sis n jie.hahaha.omgx.jie left her muffin since the morning untouched! den ask mi bring home somemore sia.~er xing~hahas.quite a nice day loThursday, April 14, 2005,
♥ 10:39 AM
today.history teacher not coming for the time being le bahs.mrs leong taking our class instead.had a class test on it.we were planning to fail together.hees.yeahs.hmt? okie lo.today's audrey birthday.1st,shall wish her a v.happy birthday=)science a little boringx.timothy looks moody.cheer up boy;) assembly was simple funny lo.ha.a lil interesting bahs.we were thinking whether de drummer's hand was going to fly out cos it was lik flapping away so fastly.yeahs.fastly.?okie.wadeva.wad should i say...tml is it.another dreadful day i suppose.i wonder.how many dreadful days do i have in my week? practically de next. i cant believe how am i going to hold on.but once again,r things going to be tt bad? i dunnoe.have i suppose i had predict it.n things always r as wad i expected.de worst.sighs.maybe i am jus.too.wad should i say?sensitive?had low confidence?i dunnoe.jus wadeva it is.i mean.dun u ppl find it scary when u noe wad de day is going to be like? a dreadful one? a day wid 24 h.how i am going to suppose tt.i dun care.i mean.i am saying wad i am feeling.i dun think i am wrong.i am not.becos i am expressing MY thoughts.MINE.yes.if u think u have a prob wif it.scream it n scram man.okie? got it? this isnt the kind of life i wan.no 1 understands.no one.in fact.i dun understand myself too.sometimes i thought i'm living someone else's life.is this really me? is this really wad i wan? is this wad i call my life? i have no idea y am i saying all this.but this day practically past too fast.its so scary.wads tml.its so dark.i cant see anithing.i need a torch.but i dun have one.this kind.u noe wad issit like? i doubt u dun.becos u r not me.y r ppl in this world lik tt.i mean.ppl seems to be in their thoughts n feelings all there time.when wil dey step out n think in a different view instead? sometimes i felt as if i am living on the edge.i am slipping into the mud.stuck.i cant get out.this world we're living is like a drama.lines n actions can be fake.feelings n emotions too.u nv noe wad is jus purely sincerity.i mean.this is not me.i am not this.i am not who i am.u understand? sometimes it was went so bad tt i cnat help thinking.y mus dere be an existance of mine? y cant i jus be any fallen leaves? any roots.any air.any rain.any droplet of it.a gush of wind blew past me.i am jus so alone.sometimes it felt so scary.how am i going to survive? i tried telling myself.nahs.its okie.tml is another day.but theres no use.i cant save myself.no one can.sometimes i jus wished i would jus froze into a statue.a no emotion creature.a scrupture.a illusion.but none of this happen.i pleaded for it.it ignore mi and leave mi sitting alone.sometimes i was thinking.even if i should die now.i dun mind.is there anything tt is worth for mi to go for.but i noe i cant.this is my life.i make it.i mean.its my life n de outcomes of it comes frm me.i shall cherish it becos ppl out there r struggling so hard to keep their lives.but .this world.when did it becomes as scary.scared.afraid.frighten.lonliness.boredom.sad.anger.wad r all this? happiness,joy,excitement.touched,glad,relieve.wad r all this? i even wished for a tornado to come n stuck me into it.i dun like this life.its not mine.its not its not its not.no 1 understands.how much longer can i hold on.tears jus cant stop falling.time is crawling.save me.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005,
♥ 9:06 PM
wad should i say..1stly.shant comment on today le.its not impt. those in band.cheeer up okiex?!heees.mus smile arhs.becos we r already feeling proud of the effort u all put in! shouldnt have regrets le wors.hees.dun brood over it le wors.mus smile arhs.see it in de positive way!sMiLEx.cheer up!i froze.into pieces n blocks of ice.its so cold.
Monday, April 11, 2005,
♥ 7:16 PM
cool day! damn happy!hees.lalalallalala.mizi so funny today! make us fun lik siao when he say de ma mi mo thingy! his reaction v.v.v.funny lors!mizi! wad is this?!hahahahah.cool!lalalla.heeees.wah sey.today imah,kristy,jessie n me crap so much sia.4 of us siao liaos on de way to imah's uniform shop!hahahahha.v. funny lo.hehehe.imah u bad leix.say i in the scrupture!herhs.hahahahhaa.den walked back wif jessie.we pretend we in genting cos the wind was so big n cold!hahahah.all siao liaos.drenched in the big rain.fun fun!! wanted to play in de rain myself de.but i scared of thunder so nv play.hehehehetrue love fades but nv dies:)
Saturday, April 09, 2005,
♥ 7:41 AM
hmmx hmmx.today went for co in morning.whole co play together,without the conductor when he haven come.hahaha.fun manx!den baked cookies in de after noon wif jessie.she helped in de measurements lo.hehe.keep saying i stupid manx.wah liaos.haha.yesterday night was fun.co ended at 8.30 lik tt.audrey lo.keep scaring us.i staring in de space then she suddenly AHHH!,i jumped up sia.not once leix.thrice!omg.hees.den jessie n audrey v.de lamy lo!hahahaha.they purposely run far far den hide behind de cars wanna scare me so i took a detour n tried walking the other way round to their back but they somehow found out.hahaha.omg.the car park at the polyclinic was scary lo.omg.i promise i wont walked there alone at night anymore.hees.nice day.
u said u gave mi ur trust.u promised.so keep it.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005,
♥ 10:10 PM
sighs.wad do we have today.or maybe.jus me.sigh~sighs~sighed.hmmx.went to sch.struggling wif my cello.its jus so heavy.pe was still ok lors.melvin i innocent leix.den u make mi.ha.but its okie.hmmx.den.eng was normal.a lil bored.maths was so complicated.dun really understand fully wad de teacher's saying or rather explaining.>poof.Oco to me was kinda bad.becos.ok.i have to re type this becos the com siao.hais.hmmx.i feel like i am bursting...to become jus thin air.which will be a present den.i have to re type evrything again.was saying tt.i am like so stress nowadays lo.syf coming le but i totally have no confidence in myself.i mean.i dun wan to get selected de.or rather.its okie wif mi.i dun think i should be selected even lo.today at co we had to play one by one.n eveery 1 was like looking lo.ok,ya.i noe syf got more audience ritex..ar har so? does it means i am prohibitted by my thoughts of being nervous?i mean is like now it looks like i cant even control my arm.it jus doesnt listen to me.y does it look as if i was playing shit? i mean i am trying my best to keep it down.n ya.okie.its not the best.but i have tried kkz.stares r jus so scary.sick n tired of everything at times.y is everything jammed in a jar? its so tight.i am getting breathless.sometimes i seem to have to put on a mask on my own too.its a mask of a clown.i had to be cheerful n smiling when i am actually not happy.i do this becos.i wan others to like feel tt not everyone in this earth gives up hope easily.becos ppl nowadays seem to give up on life as lightly as wadeva u call tt.i dun noe wads the true me.
can i jus be washed away wif the rain?at the least.melt me away.i am jus too tired to carry on.
Friday, April 01, 2005,
♥ 8:18 PM
hehehex.today today? niice n funny n relieved!muahah.went to sch n tried trickign some ppl .hmmx..50 50 la.some believed some not.but mostly do.muaahhaa.see see.arent i clever?hees~=PPpPp.den timothy tricked mi siaa! say wad mus tell class to stay back after sch for geo for 15 mins,den i say.huh..really arhs.hahaha.fallen trap.*gosh*hahas.well.clever one.hahasden i told farhanah de same thing den she believed leix!hahas.stil say ok somemore.then i tell her to stay herself!hahahhas.then every1 laughed.hees.mizi,aidil,imah,jessie,kristy,fairul,timothy,alan we all.hahahhaa.den kristy more funny lo.imah bluffed her say there was band today till 9,den say..huhx!??!!?!.hahaha.den all of us laughed at her cos she look so funny!!hahahah.den i also bluffed yu3hui.hahas.den i n yuhui went to bluff greg.hahaha.told him his bb teacher wanna meet him at the bb court.then he really believe leix!hahah.den he ask where where.den we say there there.haha.then he really walked towards the void deck there!hahaha.den he walked till half way ,i n yuhui asked him if he knoe today's april's fool.hahaha.then he'''hahahha.vfunny leix! his expression!haha.~ouch ouch~laughs till stomach cramps.
den den,mrs low tried to trick us into staying back.but in the end all of us noe its a trick.haha.den maths hors.timothy threw a fake cockroach at her hiden in his ex.bk de.then she lik a bit shocked abit dun noe wad is happenign then we all laugh like siao sia.n i laughed so loud cos it was extremely funny!~opps~hahas.den den den.recess ritex.i saw jian xian,den i bluff say got some1 wan mi to pass him something.so i handed him de fake cockroach and he hold it.looked at it.n faster let go siaa..omg omg!hahahha.the whole scene was sooooo funny!!hahahha.i keep laughing n laughing lors.almost couldnt eat de food.hahahahah.was so funny!!hahaha.de way he reacted! should have see it urself!hhhaa
den den.jacqueline also .haha.bluff her bout geo.geo lesson was extremmely funny! timothy tricked ms mas wif the cockroach n she scream sia!hahaha den we all laugh lik siao.hahah.n imah was so funny sia! abt the sticker thing!hahaha.then kristy n jessie keep pasting hte sticker on themselves!hahahah.den ben chua kana being put den he dunnoe.v.funny lo!hahhaha
den after sch,saw chieh suan and told him someone wants mi to pass him something.den he asked wad is it.den i give him the cockroach.den he lik.dunnoe how to react lo!hahahaha.cos he saw it in his hands then he stare at it for a few secs and then lik wan to let go of it.but nv.hahahha.v.v.vfunny!hahhas.muahaha.success.daryl also lo.hahahahhax.make mi laugh like siao.hahas.phew~ it was found.~phew phew~i promise to take extra care of it~phewwww!!.yu ding's a nice senior!!hahahaha.thannk u soo much.
went home struggling wif my cello.its was soososo heavy! almost stopped halfway sia.luck nv.hehes.well~tricked yolk whye bout her shoe lace!grace also!hahahas.omgx.=PppPp.so sry bout it.=D.happy april's fool.tml timothy they all got flag day.2/4s guys some also.wonder if we should go n support them.hahas;considering
ur smile melts my heart.